answers of the past 2 days:
to a new acquaintance:
How am I? Uhm... busy, which means nothing. In the middle of my life, which is normal. A bit overwhelmed, which is frustrating. I'm alive and kicking, or something along those lines.
to a good friend, accomplice in culinary arts and other decadent enterprises:
i was in italy friday and saturday, returned home last night past midnight. my southern border crossings are due to one fellow, whom i met not too long ago (during this whole crisis). last and not least, it was also in trying to sort through the feeling of "being in love" that added to my own clarity. it made me seek help sooner than i might otherwise have done. a good thing! there are indeed some childhood traumas that i either internalized or never dealt with, that have made me susceptible to abuse... and for a long time i have wondered why on earth i occasionally found myself in such situations.
tethering on the edge of disequilibrium in not that easy, but that is where my path has taken me. i do not know where i will emerge on the other side of this pass... i am confident that it will work out, somehow it always does, i am also very fortunate to be surrounded by very good friends. without a doubt, it is rather good to take stock and to realize that in spite of a few "bad" relationships, for the most part, i have been very fortunate and wise enough to have some great people around me. when i am down in the hole, it is not always easy to see this. what gets me out, is to start looking at the real accomplishments. my relationship with money and wealth is not quite so clear yet, but i suspect that this too will be resolved.
so, let's do lunch some time soon...
to a long time loyal friend:
indeed!
YES!
