it is that i just miss my son. he called this morning, we spoke briefly and now i am calm again. sometimes he is really difficult or close to impossible to get on the phone, like this weekend. today i called his cell phone, and he returned the call. it is good to hear his calm voice and his concern is touching.
when i read the ensemble of what i have published in last couple of days, and what i emailed, there are apparent contradictions, however these are just apparent. i also sense that the days when i can indulge in producing so much noise are coming to a close, there is simply too much drift in what i am doing, and i want to focus.
i sense that there is a barrier that is starting to dissolve the instant that i surrender to what is.
the silence and the serenity are starting to return.
